I looked at the date of the last time that I actually sat down and wrote, and it was almost a month ago. A whole month where my fingers didn't hit these keys and where my brain and body have both been on complete over-drive. Because moving, renovations, cottaging and school starting in a few days means that life is moving faster than I can keep up with. But we're finally moved into our new house, the drywall dust is settling, the boxes are slowly getting unpacked and there are finally groceries stacked in our cupboards. But school? Well, all of a sudden this year is a million times harder...because it's not only me going to school in a few days. Mya is starting kindergarten.
It takes my breath away for a moment just writing that...because I just can't believe it.
I had a moment the other day at the cottage after getting home from the beach with the kids when it all just hit me. I finished wiping down sand covered feet, dried off slippery wet bodies and decided to randomly log online for just a moment--just to see what the rest of the world was doing...and you know what they were doing?
GETTING READY FOR KINDERGARTEN.
They were discussing the best lunch pails, backpacks and 'prepping your little ones for kindergarten' techniques. They were having picnic lunches to practice opening tiny Tupperware containers, and they were taking trips to the new school to scope out the kindergarten door and playground. They were practicing numbers and letters and how to zip up little coats. They were reading stories about the first day of school and organizing playgroups ahead of time with fellow classmates so that their little kindergartener would already have a friend at school who they knew. They were baking batches and batches of muffins and freezing them and carefully placing permanent labels on every single thing imaginable.
They were READY. They were totally prepared.
And I was AT THE BEACH.
But as I started to get my list together of all of the things that we would do when we got back from the cottage, I started to realize something that I had never really realized before that moment.
She's already ready.
And so is yours.
Because prepping for kindergarten has been happening for years.
All of those times that you read bedtime stories and tucked her in at night? You were prepping.
All of those times that you hugged little bodies, kissed scraped knees and said "I love you"...you were prepping.
All of those times that you set boundaries, reminded her to use her manners and encouraged her to share...you were prepping.
All of those times that you set up playdates, brought her to the park and told her to be kind and brave..you were prepping.
All of those times that you showed her that you loved her and held her little hand...you were prepping.
Because kindergarten is more than just numbers and counting and knowing how to properly write your name.
You've already done the work. You've been doing it for years. You've been raising a good little human being. And that's what really matters. The numbers, letters and reading? It will come. It will all come.
But a good little person? Well, that's the start to a lifetime of success.
So breathe, mama. You'll both be just fine.
And I'll remind myself of this as I let her go that first day and pretend that I'm not going to go sit in my car and cry. Because it's hard. It's just plain hard.
So sleep easy tonight. Know that you've done enough. Know that she's already good. She's already ready.
...And now excuse me while I go stick some Mabel's Labels on a million different things, pick out her first day of school outfit, bake up some muffins and get some snacks ready for us to take a trip to visit her schoolyard tomorrow--because some things still gotta get done.
Love to all the anxious parents out there. I feel you.